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Wednesday, November 9, 2011

11/9/2011 - Afternoon

  I went to clean&organize Ms.Sabado's classroom as usual. As I was organizing the desks, she said,
" Tammy, I talked to your friend, Israel today. I said to him--that he was a smart kid, but he was failing my class.
So I told him,
' You know what?Talk to your friend Tammy. She's in my class and she's a good kid and she's passing my class. You can go talk to her and ask her to help tutor you' "
  I stood there and chuckled at the idea.
"He's a smart kid, but he just doesn't focus.", she commented.
     After cleaning, I went outside and sat on the bench (same one from yesterday). I felt the wind lightly swirled about as I wrote in my journal. There were more sparrows chirping in delight today. It was..peaceful.
The clouds in the sky glided like whispers of spirits.
At 3:30PM, Mister Seeberger came out of the nearby building, he greeted me and we started talking about his acting course, literature, his holidays and ect. It was interesting :D
At 4:30PM, Kim-senpai and I chatted, then left campus with her at 4:43PM.
  The sunset was glimmering today, under the sprays of light, oceanic clouds.
Kim and I engulfed the beauty of the sky.


My apologies for the bad drawing, I tried my best.

It made me realize how badly I wanted to see Israel-senpai.
" Fuck..",I muttered in the depths of emotion.

  I came to see that Kim was repeatedly pressing the crosswalk button. She was raping the button with her index finger. lol :B

11/9/2011 - My Dream

Italic words are the definitions that I got off from here : http://www.dreammoods.com/
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The Dream :
 It was Saturday, I had invited my friends over to hang out. My best friend would be arriving in the evening, another friend, Amy at noon (remembering that I gave her an invitation back in her birthday letter on Monday), and Israel-senpai was already here--sitting in the bedroom.
"12:19PM", I outside to get Amy. She called my name and told me that I was late. I sheepishly grinned and invited her inside, " Israel is also here, upstairs-", I began. She frowned. I somehow reassured her.
  The dream fast forwarded.
I was in a crowded hallway, Israel-senpai was walking ahead. His back was turned away from me. I called out to him, he kept walking. Either I was being ignored or my voice couldn't reach him.

Ignored - represents that you are not paying enough attention to some aspect of yourself.Perhaps you are overlooking something. Alternatively, it may represent your waking experiences of being ignored by that person. 


" Israel-senpai! Israel-senpai! "
  The hallway faded in a dim orange color.
I was transported to the quad at school, where I was moving on wards to my next class. I had a strange feeling that Israel-senpai was looking for me, but I ignored it and dashed by when his back was turned.
" Why..did I do that.." I regretted it.

  I awoke. I curled myself under the green fuzz of blankets. The hand of which holds the strong connecting bond between Israel-senpai and I trembled, I clenched it into a fist, clasped it with my left hand and held it close to my chest. I coiled my body even tighter.
  I am in need of comfort. I feel weak. I am a weakling. I feel weak, because I am weak.
It was still pretty early, I closed my eyes and saw the pitch darkness where golden orange butterflies fluttered.
"I must be dreaming", I was and I awoke once more to the dim blueness.

Butterfly - symbolizes need to settle down; signifies creativity,joy, romance, spirituality. Experiencing a new way of thinking, or undergoing a transitional phase.

Orange - hope,friendliness, courtesy, generosity,  liveliness, sociability, and an out-going nature. May want to expand your horizons and look into new interests. 


  I have come to the conclusion that I need to stop overlooking a certain thorn that I have and turn things around to get things back into 100% homeostasis. I feel poetic, here is a crappy poem I came up with in 5 minutes.

 My strength is my sword in battle,
when I feel weak and meek
my sword degraded,
I allow myself to be stabbed and suffocated,
as many times as there is hope to protect you

For though my corpse may be forgotten,
I sit and wait for you

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

11/8/2011 -- After School in the Afternoon

I have a lot of free time.
  After 6th period, I moved on wards to clean up Ms.Sabado's classroom. Cleaning FTW. I finished cleaning in like 15 minutes,then I took my leave. I had a seat on the dark brown, metal bench in front of the oldest building on campus.
  I didn't really feel like going home and being cooped up in the house, so I sat and leaned against the fluttering afternoon breezes of wind brushing up against my bare legs. It ran its fingers through my hair and brushed up against my cheeks. I crossed my legs and wrote in my journal, listening to the chirping of sparrows and the bristling leaves of the bush before me.
  Far later, the rays of sunlight were settling, the sun was going down.
I checked my watch, it was 4:30pm, I checked the sky, the wind playfully tugged at my side-bangs. I uncrossed my legs, heaved a relaxed breath of air, " Ten more minutes.. ", I thought to myself.
   Ten minutes passed, I left campus. Without the surrounding buildings of school campus, I saw the majority of the setting sky with the sun being blocked out by townhouses. The seagulls soared above like butterfly silhouettes.
It looked like this :


Sadly, I do not have a camera, so I drew this on photoshop out of memory.

However, no matter how relaxed the moment was, the feeling I tried covering remains. Its no use until I deal with it. 
   

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

After School Homework Session with Christine

I invited Christine over to help her with her homework. Our first reason was to do something about her lab report thingy and that was quickly solved by looking it up. Then we started working on her world history stuff.
Her assignment was to make a bubble chart on the religion, science&philosophy, and misc. of  China, Mediterranean area, and India. We had trouble in the Indian philosophy&science part. For the fact India is part of Asia, I suggested that they may've had relations with China and the Chinese philosopher, Confucius.
  "But, Confucius is from China", said Christine.
I misheard her, " Vagina? "
( China and vagina rhyme )
  " What?! O_O Vagina? "
 " Ohhh! I misheard you, sorry o__o ", I replied :B

  We later got the rest of the bubble chart done, with Christine's sleepy-writing, and my writing. :D

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Julie's 20th Birthday

        After school, I arrived home to see my sister over at the dining table. "Happy birthdaaay!", I greeted her, then took a shower. In my towel-wrapped body, she barged into the bathroom.
  " Do you want to come with me to see bunnies? " 
I took the invitation. Once I got dressed, equipped myself with my equipment : 
  my journal, a mechanical pencil, and an eraser.
          First, we went over to the Martin Luther King Jr. Library for my sister to return and collect new books to check out. Its been nearly two years since I've gone to the library, so I've forgotten where the books were to be returned to. 
  " You throw the book at the librarian", my sister explained, " Right between the eyes. "   o___o
  Once that was done, we drove off to Edgewood. Julie asked for directions from a geeky-university-boy on a bike. He gaves us directions that got us lost. Julie's boyfriend, Christian asked for directions from a hobbit-looking fellow.  He gave us the correct directions. 
      After driving for sometime, we finally arrived at a parking ground.  Christian had to run to and fro to get the wooden hiking/ weapon stick and lock his car. We took turns holding the stick and leading the way. The hike took a hour from walking forward to back.  Julie became disgruntled for not seeing any bunnies on our walk forward, but on our way back, I spotted one. We all then left the trail, into the tall, dry grass after the bunny. 
  Off the trail, I found some bones scattered about. I took two bones as a souvenir, one tooth and one arm bone. The bones looked related to that of a raccoon or rabbit. We didn't get to see any more bunnies after that. ):
  After the hike, we went to The Sweet Tomato. A little on our way and at the restaurant, we took turns writing in parts of a story. The story revolved around a Turtle named Kearm. 
  Anyways, at the restaurant, we dinned on some salad, breads, and sweet treats. I ate quite a bit because the mitochondria in my cells were constantly taking in the foods that I was eating and turning into energy and I had high metabolism.  
Also, the food was absolutely delicious. The muffins were of absolute fluffy,sweet texture (freshly baked too!).  :D
  Aside from eating, we also spent the majority of the time taking turns doodling on a napkin and writing the story. We left when there was no room whatsoever on the napkin. xD
        After a delicious meal and ridiculously teeny-tiny ice cream cones, we drove back home to drop me off. On our way back at about 7pm, where the sun was pretty much setting, the scenery was wondrous. The setting sun in the west cast a gaze of silhouettes. At a very peculiar spot was an open plain, with a merry-go-round-tent-figure of darkness. I pointed out to my sister that it looked like a reference from,
" The Carnival of Souls ". She agreed and Christian wondered what it was. My sister explained it to him, 
    " When you get home tonight you will see a man at your door. He will follow you to your bedroom door, you will see his shadow at your bedroom window. You will open your door, and he will not be there. You will go there (to the circus-like place) and a bunch of dead people (souls) will catch you..." 
   " AND DIG YOUR NOSE!", I blurted, "Because its their fetish" 
LOLLOLLOL. :D

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Pink Umbrella.

I was browsing through the net of random things,when I suddenly bumped into this image. o 0 o